Crossroad

If you're thinking about that particular chapter of "Band of Brothers"... you are so wrong...

MY Crossroad...

It's less than 5 hours to my final paper for this semester, and sem 4 would have come to an end.

Time flies...

Supposely I should be either:
(1) Sleeping, or
(2) Burning midnight oil, or for that matter, twilight(I know I used the wrong word... I just thought it rhymes...) oil. Guys used to army jargons like to used the term "last burst of fire".

But here I am updating my blog, at such unearthly hours.

Whatever is in the mind of a 24 (reaching 25) year old, slightly overweight guy that prompted him to update his blog rather then doing what is more urgently at hand, you can be sure it's something of significance... at least to him.

Many things had happen... many events of varied magnitudes had come and gone, people too... Happy memories, sad ones... blah blah... I can go on for all day talking about the year 2005, my 2005...

One year has past.

In fact its been a year and 15 days. Whenever I thought about "that particular someone" for the past 380 days there would be surges of emotions going in all directions through me...(I heard people whispering "drama"...)

Yeap... the very same...

So much I wanted to say and do, so much that I wanted to let "that particular someone" know...

Not that she wouldn't already know or might give a damn, but the belief that she MIGHT be remotely interested is still alive within me.

Stuff that friends are telling me to do like "letting go" and "moving on" don't seemed to be working for me.

Perhaps I'm not working on it... or rather, do I wanna let go and move on... Sigh... It really is tough being a sucker for someone you like and would cherished or would want to cherished... Any takers for this job offer?

Likewise I really want to know how she is getting on with life... Her health, (you feeling better already?) if she's eating well, (don't eat at irregular hours... its really bad for you...) school life, (Hope your grades are back to the normal. Really hope I could help though...) club life, (Any new compositions? Any upcoming performances? Or are you already an "Alumni" like me, haha...) and relationship-wise (As always, hope you're as blissful as ever with "him"... though for some selfish reason I always hope otherwise... and hope you enjoyed V'day 2006...)

Things I never would say to her when I had the opportunity... And stuff I would never let her know... as a "friend" (Hey I don't want to be her "friend"...)

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Another year's gone...

The new year urshers in new hopes. With that enters another stage of my life.

The Crossroad again. Options are as followed: Move on... Let go...

Final answer, Move on... but only with her by my side...

So I guess in the meantime, I'll still be waiting at the Crossroad... Just in case
miracles has it and you decided to change your mind, you know where to look for
me... ^^

... Eh I think I better go study for a bit...

While waiting.